Reflections on 2008

So it's been 365 days since we brought in 2008. Trying to leave the demons in 07 bringing in the new year with joy and festivities hoping to set a trend that the next 364 days would follow. Realistically this doesn't make sense but we try to make it work in our human minds.

Last year 2007 ended with tails of chasing tail, saying fuck school, and changing my mind every 5 seconds. I didn't have a NY kiss but I dapped my boy Preston and we both became committed to the money. Oh how that's changed. I dont know what he's doing but me I have lost so much value in money anymore I don't even care about the US economy.

Started the year in a relationship shortly after. Worst mistake of my life. We live and learn I understand but I ignored all warning signs and deserved everything that came to me in that relationship. So even if I still had hate in my heart I can't wish upon her because I should have known better. Kurupt said it best.

Me & my friends went through ups and downs. There were weeks I wouldn't see them and not even care. And they were months where we shared life changing moments together. And right now I don't know where me and my friends stand.

School. HHAHAHAHAH. Yea Epic Failure. Right now I don't even think school is for me.

I put on a facade to people. Like i read somewhere that this dude was having a bad day and he didnt say 10 words to people all day. That's the opposite of me. If people knew how I really saw myself they be worried. But everytime you see me I'm happen and if you even suspect any thing I cheer up real fast. I don't know who reads my blog but if some one does then confronts me about this I'm a laugh hella hard and tell them "You know I be fuckin around" It's just how I am.

Drugs. I don't think I got into as heavy as I think. I mean I'm 2 months clean so there is no dependency. But then again I can't see my life w/o drugs. Escape is what keeps me sane.

So on to 2009
My plans got royally fucked up so many times I don't even care. I honestly might get a blunt, a flask of henny and just chill at the park by my house and bring in the new year the ACTUAL way it's going to be. Me, myself, and I. That's the only who I can ever count on and even then I disappoint. So happy new year to everyone even though not everyone will have one. I mean look at how everyone is always complaining about the year before.

But it's ok it means you're never content. And isn't that what life is all about?